A couple of weeks ago, I was in a mood. The kind where the only way out of it was lots of coffee, a long walk, and finally a nap. So, I headed outside with a full Thermos of the caffeinated stuff and my camera just in case I saw something worthwhile.
Yeah – it was that bad.
It was probably less than two minutes into my jaunt that the beauty out there started to get to me.
I wished I’d left my Thermos in the house because I had to keep setting it down and the one time it took a tumble, and my mood went from almost improved to not so much.
But then I kept seeing more of the beauty because that’s the way it is out here. God is so kind even when my heart is so heavy I can’t feel His blessing right away.
On the way, a laugh out loud funny thing happened: the coneflowers started to express my almost former bad mood. What a conglomeration of emotions!
I’d been feeling a little faded.
And a little bugged.
I admit to being a little bent out of shape by a deep sadness in my soul.
And on edge.
Buffeted by the winds of discouragement.
And on my last nerve.
After I stopped laughing, I thanked God for (again!) illustrating my circumstances in the blossoms. He knows my love language better than anyone because He wired me that way.
Instead of moving on and continually putting my coffee down, I stood still and drank it. That’s when gratitude for the beauty all around me vanquished my grouchy feelings. It was like a giant dousing of goodness over my snarky heart.
God heard my stress-filled prayer. “Help. Me. I. Need. Your. Mercy.”
I knew I could ask in that desperate tone because the Psalmist did and God heard.
You, Lord, are forgiving and good, abounding in love to all who call to you. Hear my prayer, Lord; listen to my cry for mercy. When I am in distress, I call to you, because you answer me. Psalm 86:5-7 (NIV)
I leave you with a little more of the beauty He created, (this might be my favorite photo from that day – a bee on tip-toe!) savoring the morning on my way back to the house for that nap. And one more verse I pray will encourage your heart.
The Lord is merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love. Psalm 103:8 (ESV)
Oh! And I called Jon to apologize for my grumbling that morning and to tell him how God took my not so fine morning and turned it into one fine day!
Until Next Time,